| If nothing ever changed, thered be no butterflies. - unknown
Believe it or not, I do take all the criticism and shittalking into consideration. if it seems like I don’t care whats said to me. Trust. I listen to every single word spit at me and I use it to make myself a better person. I try my best to be open-minded. You can never really learn enough, I guess. To my friends, especially heidi, alison joyce, & zooneeguh, im sorry if ive disappointed you lately. I know exactly how you feel, remember? The last thing I want to do is keep on doing that. all I can say is ima be me.. but im trying to hear you out. From this past year, yea, ive changed. Ive changed in the way I react to the situations and issues brought upon me. I deal with things when they need to be dealt… but I would favor in just brushin’ it off. I say things when they need to be said… theres no need to keep things inside. One lesson I started the year with was how the word loyalty works. As many of you know, the way I handle my friendships has been tested, in particular, my best friend. We just never really were in good terms the past year, neither are we right now. But even with that said, the wonders of our friendship evolved again. Weve pushed each other away and became strangers to one another- I for one disliked that person with a passion, or so I said. I recently reached a situation where I just had to turn to people. I appreciated it, but it felt only right if I talked to the former best friend about it. Surprisingly, I received open ears and jokes-just like the old times. It was hard to make that phone call, but it was worth it. It meant a lot. I sat back and asked myself what eminem had asked himself…” why would i wanna destroy something i helped build?” why would i want to continue to push away people that i know will have my back in times of need? So in conclusion, although i know it would take a lot of time to get used to, i will say the cliche... i got all your backs, no matter what the changes. “if some shit ever just pop off I’m supposed to be beside ‘em.”
Everything’s okay, I guess. It could be better. My yang isn’t talking to me- which makes me crazy. Im “unbalanced” as of now. I tripped, things got way out of hand. Next thing you know, im sleeping before 3:00 am. Ugh. Theres no need for broadcasting in here. School started Wednesday, same old shit. I do plan on getting that 4.0, still. lol. my mom leaves me messages everyday after school saying, “wassup fool.” It still manages to make me laugh. Ive been getting thongs for the past 2 days. its interesting cause im matching undies with the girls. Ha. I keep on changing my mind on what to get shortee & nainai for their birthdays. I want them to like it, a lot a lot. Freakn shortee, I already had an idea but then she gave me another idea. Ha. So now im confused. Heidi, ima make you read this in a bit, so here. Keep your braids on a lil longer, they fit you, perfectly.. sister. Im sorry I couldn’t make it to your game, but the other sister needed a little babysitting. Ill be rooting for you next time, I promise. Taloma’s been keeping me up everyday since Sunday. Staying on the phone til 2 AM, even when I have school the following day. His ass falls asleeps in class, not my fault. hes been too kind, being my alarm clock in the morning for school. So now I get 7:00 AM phone calls that scream out “ WAKE UP.” eh, it don’t work. But I like it. lol Lakers keep on losing. Fuck. Tara, you still have to tell me your games ! ill try watching that, too. yea, im done now. Bye kids. |
